Dreaming of Gage...

It's Friday & I'm having a big day...
Now, when I say "big day"...I dont mean that I have any major plans or anything...I mean it more in the sense of, I'm feeling big.

But, I slept very well last night. Woke up refreshed...even curled my hair with hot rollers before coming to work. That like never happens! So far about 5 people have told me that I have that "pregnant glow" today. Really, I just got a good nights' sleep for a change.

I had a dream last night. For the first time, I dreamed that had my baby, and I saw him--I saw his little face. In all my other pregnant dreams, I had a boy--but I never saw his face. Well, last night I saw his face! But, it was a bizarre dream...
First of all, I was at work. Standing in the hall with this nurse, and then suddenly--it was like, "Oh sh*t, I just had my baby." No breaking of the water, no pushing, nothing. (And all of you moms out there are thinking...'yes, you were dreaming!') Then, I went into a treatment room because I suddenly had this urgent medical need. I get in there with my baby. He's not bloody, not covered in anything. He's clean, he's pink, he's bald with crystal blue eyes...And then it hits me...I just delivered this baby WAY early. So, here comes doctors that I work with...and mind you, I'm carrying around my son who's attached to me...not crying, he's just perfect. I'm not laying down--I am up and walking... then the NICU team arrives to weigh him. Well, they had to cut the cord & weigh him. He weighed 5 pounds, 5 ounces in my dream. And, I asked what the date was so that I would know my son's birthday. At first in the dream it was 5/28 (which is tomorrow), and then it somehow changed to 5/31 (which is Tuesday). So, I realized that I was only 24 weeks pregnant. But, my baby looked & acted so healthy! So, after they weighed the baby, they could not believe that a 24 weeker was 5 lb 5 oz, and they couldnt believe that he was breathing on his own, etc. So, in the end, the conclusion was that I was further along than anyone thought.

Whatever--none of that mattered. I was just soooooo glad that Gage was here. And I was holding him...and he was so tiny & perfect!!!! He had no hair. He had blue eyes & a wrinkled up face. Oh, he was perfect & pink!!!!