Mom & David,
Thanks for our flowers.
It's hard to believe that one year ago today, we found out that our unexpected, pleasant surprise baby was not going to be. It's amazing how much you can fall in love with someone in such a short amount of time. How you can fill your heart and mind with hopes & dreams for a little one, and then it's just...not going to be.
Sometimes I feel like it just happened, and it feels fresh.
And sometimes I feel like it was so long ago.
Some days, I think, she'd be...however old, right now.
I imagine my life being different with two children instead of one.
How would it be different? What would we be doing right now?
But, it's been a year.
A year ago tonight I cried myself to sleep knowing that it would be my last night to spend with Masyn tucked away inside me. Not that the baby was alive, but it was my last night to be pregnant with Masyn. I just cried my little eyes out while my husband held me.
And now it's been a year.
It's hard to believe.
But, I have faith that there is a plan for us.
God has a plan for our family.