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Sunday, February 24, 2008

One thing after another...after another....

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Well....so, the verdict is: Hubby has torn his esophagus.

Of course, everyone (including us) wants to know what caused this? We may never know, but it could be two different things: (1) about 12 weeks ago when Hubby was w/ this one doctor, he was told to take X amount of Advil per day for 2 weeks to manage the pain associated w/ his diagnosis at that time.....well, come to find out: in SOME people, large amounts of NSAIDS over that period of time can cause GI bleeding & ulcers. (2) Hubby was put on a drug recently by Doctor #2. One of the side effects: vomiting. So, Hubby took the drug for 3 days & just had to deal with vomiting. If the drug had worked---the vomiting would have been worth it! But, after 3 days, there was no improvement with the drug, plus he had the vomiting, so the doc took him off that drug.
And, so---here we are.
According to the GI doctor, this tear is most likely caused by vomiting, but both scenarios above may have contributed to this happening.

UGH.

So, when they scoped him yesterday, they were able to see that they'd stopped the bleeding. They're giving him meds to help it heal, and it's supposed to be fully healed in about 10 days w/ the help of this medicine.

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Apparently---tearing your esophagus HURTS A LOT. So, he's been on morphine for the pain. BUT: his blood pressure has been low from the blood loss. Then, he was getting morphine every 4 hours. That wasn't really lasting 4 hours, so they increased it to every 2 hours. Last night, his blood pressure was just too low, and they had to hold off on any pain meds until they were able to get his blood pressure back up. So, FINALLY early this morning his blood pressure was 103 over something, and they gave him some more pain medicine.

We have been looking at a possible blood transfusion because his Hematocrit level was 3 points away from needing one (so we were told). Since we've gotten here it's just been getting lower & lower....but, we're waiting on his morning labs to come back.

The GI doc says that he is waiting on Hubby's labs to stabilize, and that we can go home when the numbers (1) stop falling & stay the same for at least lab draws in a row, or (2) turn around & start increasing.

So for now, that's where we are.

Gage's heart is broken. Just completely broken.

When all of the blood vomit started at home, Gage was just right there behind Hubby when he started puking everywhere. So, he saw all that & got COMPLETELY FREAKED OUT! Then, we had to rush off to the hospital, and he was left in the arms of my mother in law. Certainly he loves her & is with her quite a bit----but everything was moving so quickly & everything was so out of the norm, that he felt that, you know?
He came up to the hospital yesterday for a visit. He just wanted to stay in my lap. It was wonderful & heart breaking at the same time.
So, when it was time to leave, he kissed me several times, and left the room without crying. My mother in law said that he cried for me the WHOLE WAY back to their house. She said that he would pause while crying & say, "I sorry I crying. I just MISS HER."

Ughhhh....so, you know when she told me that over the phone, I was crying too!
Bless his heart.
I called this morning to check on him, and wanted to talk to him on the phone. That was NOT a good idea, and it started all of the crying over again. I could hear him crying that he wanted me, and he wanted to go to "Mommy's house." [it's so weired that he doesn't just call it home...it's always been "mommy's house". ]
Anyway....I'm just missin' him, and he's missing me.

Everything is better when Gage & I are together...

"Better Together"...

There's no combination of words
I could put on the back of a postcard
No song that I could sing
But I can try for your heart
Our dreams, and they are made out of real things
Like a, shoebox of photographs
With sepiatone loving
Love is the answer,
At least for most of the questions in my heart
Like why are we here? And where do we go?
And how come it's so hard?
It's not always easy and
Sometimes life can be deceiving
I'll tell you one thing it's always better when we're together

MMM it's always better when we're together
Yeah, we'll look at the stars when we're together
Well, it's always better when we're together
Yeah, it's always better when we're together....

I just miss my buddy. I can't wait for this grand adventure to be over & to get back home to playing soccer in the backyard, and playing TWUCKS on the living room floor...and him saying, "I wanna take a baff"....I'm just ready to get back to normal, and to hear him say, "Snuggle me!" in that sweet little grumpy way that he does....

Anyway....this whole "tear in the esophagus" may be a real set back for us...
Hubby is needing prostate & bladder surgery. We have been in the final stages of preparing for that. Tomorrow at 9am we are supposed to be meeting with the Neurosurgeon to get the "all-clear" for surgery. Tomorrow at 10:30 we are supposed to start everything with the fertility clinic since they intend to cut out part of Hubby's prostate. And finally, we were supposed to meet with the Urologist to finalize a date/time & details for the surgery.

Now....all this.
Will we be able to keep tomorrow's appointments? They are located here at this hospital, but will we be able to go? I don't know.
Will this be a set-back in doing the other surgery? I don't know.

It's odd to think that this episode is completely unrelated to the urology stuff...and maybe they're linked because of the meds he's been on for the urology stuff.... But seriously----this is just one thing after another, after another, after another. UGH.

But I appreciate all the prayers & well wishes from you guys.
We're hanging in here!

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30 Comments:

At 10:12 AM , Blogger Family Adventure said...

It just doesn't seem to end, does it? I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better for you. And for poor, little brave man Gage (that had me in tears...).

The only thing I can do is send you lots of healing thoughts.

Heidi

 
At 10:20 AM , Blogger Laura said...

I am relieved they know what is wrong and Ipray and hope for a speedy recovery.

Sending you all hugs and prayers.

 
At 10:48 AM , Blogger Burgh Baby's Mom said...

Ugh. That's way more than one should family to have to take on. My thoughts are with you, and I hope Hubby has a speedy recovery.

 
At 11:38 AM , Blogger Nada said...

I am so sorry that all this is happening. You are all definitley in our thoughts. Please let me know if there is anything I can do.

 
At 11:40 AM , Blogger Jenster said...

Some day this will all be a distant memory - one you certainly won't forget, but a memory just the same. For all three of you.

But in the meantime it sucks, doesn't it??

Still praying for "some day" to come really fast!

 
At 12:41 PM , Blogger S said...

So so sorry. Hope the healing can start soon and you all can be together again.

 
At 2:07 PM , Blogger Beth said...

ohgod, that broke my heart!!! But I'm so glad you found out what is wrong with your husband and can no go forward with getting him better...and back home to "mommy's house"....bless his little heart.

 
At 2:24 PM , Blogger Beth said...

Oh, sweetie, I'm on a blog break but just had to check in to see how things are. Not so good. Stay strong. All my best wishes and prayers to you.

 
At 5:06 PM , Blogger Pokey Puppy said...

OH dear... well I suppose at least you know whats wrong now. So if you know then you can get on the road to fixing it. That at least I hope, is a little reassurance... stay strong, God only gives us what we can handle, even if it doesn't seem like we can.

 
At 5:12 PM , Blogger Judy said...

Oh girl, I hope some relief is in store for all of you and soon. Praying that Damon gets well soon and sweet Gage and you get some good time together, too.

(((HUGS)))

 
At 5:50 PM , Blogger Patty said...

Honey I'm glad they found an answer for the bleeding and hopefully a handle on a remedy. As for the urology stuff I hope that works out too.

If you need to talk...let me know...I'm here for you.

It's so cute baby gage missed you...i was a little heartbroken he got so scared...BIG HUG!

 
At 5:51 PM , Blogger Patty said...

P.S. I love the graphic.

Keep that wonderful positive sense of humor!

 
At 6:12 PM , Blogger Sarah said...

I'm glad to hear that there is some kind of diagnosis. One step closer to those normal days at home with your family! I liked the graphic as well :)

 
At 6:23 PM , Blogger jennwa said...

You guys are in my thoughts and prayer.

 
At 6:59 PM , Blogger MamaLee said...

Oh honey...

Lots of healing being sent your way...

xoxo

 
At 7:51 PM , Blogger Chris H said...

Your poor hubby! Hope everything heals up and then you can move on to the next thing... the urologist! Freezing sperm! Re-connecting with your wee man .. at home and all settled playing TWUCKS on the floor! Thinking of you all mate.

 
At 8:00 PM , Blogger Mandy said...

Wishing you all well, I hope things get better quickly!

 
At 8:03 PM , Blogger A Mom Two Boys said...

Gah! I can't...I just...I hope...

Take care of your self, and your husband and that little boy. You'll all get through it and be that much happier to be together in the end!

 
At 3:54 AM , Blogger mpotter said...

oh, sheesh!!!
i'm very sorry about all of this. i hope it will all come through and he'll have all the OKs to go ahead and get everything done with. you def. need some time back home w/ your husband and son!

hang in there. i'll send some good thoughts!

 
At 5:56 AM , Blogger kimmy said...

It's good that they have a diagnosis, right? I hope he is feeling better and that you will all be home with Gage soon!

Kimmy

 
At 7:21 AM , Blogger Jennifer said...

Wow. My prayers are with all of you. And I really hope that your husband recovers quickly and as painlessly as possible.

 
At 9:08 AM , Blogger Not So Perfect said...

I am sorry.

Life is so unfair sometimes.

I don't think any of us can imagine what this must be like for you and your family.

I hope your husband is getting great nursing care.

 
At 2:05 PM , Blogger Chas said...

I'm so sorry you guys are going through so much. I hope the light at the end of the tunnel is near.

 
At 3:36 PM , Blogger Kate said...

My heart aches for all of you! I am praying that the docs can get everything in order and that the planned surgery and such are able to go ahead as scheduled. And that the GI stuff is just medication-related and heals ASAP.

I am wishing you a quiet and even boring life very soon. =) Hugs!

 
At 4:01 PM , Blogger Steph said...

My goodness you guys have been through a lot. Poor guy. And poor Gage. You guys are so cute. I am still praying for you guys.

 
At 5:29 PM , Blogger Bikini said...

Here's hoping that surgery goes well and a quick recovery is in order. We're thinking of you!

 
At 8:05 PM , Blogger Mojavi said...

yea ditto everyone.. glad to know what is wrong... sad it is happening to you guys :(

hugs and well wishes!!!

 
At 8:53 PM , Blogger Ann(ie) said...

You guys are going through so much. :( Just know I'm pulling for you and sending much love and prayer.

 
At 7:18 AM , Blogger zirelda said...

Lots of good wishes for all three of you. hang in there.

 
At 12:18 PM , Anonymous ~JJ! said...

Eek. I've never heard of that...

Hope hubs is better as you read this....

 

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